After months of quiet preparation we're finally ready!
It's been said I never do things in half measures and I guess that's true, but before I go too much into that, first a quick look back :)
If you read my 'about' statement, you'll know natural logic. was born during a burnout in 2019. The funny thing is I'd known it was happening for years - burnouts don't happen overnight, they take lots of time. I'd been doctoring myself for ages to the point of obsession and became pretty good at managing my nutrition, exercise, supplements and daily habits to keep me healthy because I believe in a holistic approach to life. Everything had its place and contributed massively to keeping me on track, but I slowly became more dissatisfied with how I was living my life, and that really is the key to everything.
Now don't get me wrong - I've had a ridiculous amount of fun, wicked times and amazing experiences living in Holland! I will always have a soft spot in my heart for this amazing little country that gave me so much. I've come a long way from my 20 year old self who arrived here in early May 2003 with my 4 year old daughter, two pairs of jeans (yes I remember!), a few books and as much of my daughters old bedroom as I could fit into the small Peugeot that brought us here! I had only a high school diploma, no money, no family, no friends, no job and no place of my own. I rented the top floor of a house and substituted my rent money with cleaning and cooking for the family I lived with, enrolled my daughter in school and got my first admin job working full time pulling staples and punching holes in files. It was mind numbingly boring, but survival depended on it and being a parent meant I didn't have the luxury of being picky. Between a minimum wage salary doing menial repetitive work, my rent money and paying a babysitter I found myself living the dream! It's easy, looking back, to laugh - but it didn't feel very funny at the time! Still, I couldn't go back to where I'd come from so the only way was forward and I put my head down and got to work.
But the nature of life is to evolve and grow. I have a theory that my burnout was a message from...well me...that I was outgrowing my environment and I needed to change, do something new and re-prioritize. The message was received loud and clear, and perhaps even more importantly than that, I committed to doing something about it. As soon as I did the most amazing things started happening! It was like the universe let out a massive sigh of relief that what was stuck had become unstuck and things started falling into place again. I suddenly met new, wonderful and inspiring people, felt my energy and enthusiasm coming back, and everything I needed made it's way to me seemingly out of nowhere. Some people might call it coincidence, but I think that when the universe supports your decisions, everything just happens effortlessly :)
So it's time for a massive change! My life in Holland is all packed up, given away, sold and donated. As I'm writing this I realise it's almost exactly 18 years to the day that my life in Holland comes to a close. Exactly 18 years of my life here reduced to about 18 cubic meters of 'stuff', ready to be shipped to a completely new place.
My next project has been a dream that sat quietly in the back of my mind for at least the last decade, and I've spent the best part of the past two years committing solidly to it. I can hardly wait to tell you more :)